Christmas Time

Every year my parents both say about how they feel this pressure around Christmas to be really happy, and i've never before understood that because it's always been, 'Well why wouldn't you be happy? It's Christmas!' but this year I know exactly what they mean, I've had really quite a crap year and Christmas just feels so intimidatingly happy! It seems really bad to be sad at this time of the year but I can't help it!

Although saying that, I am much more optimistic tonight than I normally am, I'm finally feeling quite christmassy and also the fact that it's almost a new year is a nice way to look forward to a fresh start, so that'll be good, and also i'm going on holiday to Center Parcs, my favourite place in the world so that'll be lovely!

So I really do hope you all have a fantastic 2013 despite however 2012 has been for you. If you are not feeling christmassy then fair enough! You don't have to! Just enjoy all the little things.

Em

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Lets cry, Lets swim, Lets everything.

I was already a big fan of Keaton Henson, I think his music's beautiful and his lyrics are all so honest and poetic but this poem is truly beautiful. It's just. I don't even know how to describe it, it's pure art. 

Em 

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Photo and Song of the Day

Books. Books. Books.

I can't explain to you, how much I love reading. It is such an amazing thing, it's one of the only things that makes me completely forget everything else that is going on around me. I just get lost completely in the story. I obviously love films and music but they don't have the same escapism capabilities for me.
I'm currently reading The Named by Marianne Curley, it's not one of my favourites I wouldn't say but it's just really nice to read, It's the kind of book that I could read for hours and get lost in it but without actually being that emotionally attached to the characters. Which is a good thing, I normally end up getting attached to characters then one of them dies and i'm devastated. This is a far more mentally stable way to read for me!
Em
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Amazing photograph

So basically I didn't really know what to talk about today and I wanted to say something to have a break from my essay! So i'm going to show you a load of my favourite pictures/gifs/photos, k cool?

COOL HUH??

I love all of these so much, the images and photography and some of my favourite singers in one of them.

Em 

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work work work

So i'm in a relatively bad mood today. It's just been such a stressful day and school in general is just getting hard. It's not that I can't do the work it's just there is so much to do all the time and I just agghh I NEED TO SLEEP.
I permanently want to go to bed and not do anything but I have so much work to do I can't do that. It probably didn't help that I went to centre parcs either as that was so amazing and it makes normal life just so much more depressing again.
At least it's Christmas soon which will be good but I love buying people presents and I don't have a job so can't really afford any. I'm starting to make some which is nice and therapeutic for me because it's drawing but it also means i'm doing that instead of the work I need to do for school!
Oh life.
Em
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My Spiritual Home

I've always been a big lover of Centre Parcs, maybe 'big lover' is an understatement. I would pretty much do anything to live there. It's amazing, I just completely forget about the rest of the world when I'm there. Normally me and my family go there for about 5 nights or something, and we're planning on going between Christmas and New years for a couple of nights; but my Dad mentioned that they do day trips, where you can book it for just a day so earlier yesterday my Dad asked, 'Would you want to go to Centre Parcs for a day?' So I said 'Definitely' then he said 'Today???' So last night I went to Centre Parcs! It was brilliant, I love that place so much and it's just made me more excited to go later on in the year. If you have the chance to go, seriously it's the best.
A little bit obsessed,
Em
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